A few months ago I wrote a post on the latest take on addiction (You can check that one out here!) and that topic was actualized by last weeks Master Key webinar and really got my head spinning!
Have You ever asked Yourself why You do certain things?
Yes, I mean the things that are not particularly good for us, maybe even potentially get us into trouble or could hurt us!
I certainly have and last week on the plane I watched the movie “What the Bleep do we know”, took a break in the middle, went into a sit and… Drumroll… There it was – the answer!!!
Finally I know which peptides I´ve been addicted to that have served me the worse in during my adult life – not a bad pay of for a few minutes in silence – after a few years of diligent self discovery – ok, call me a slow learner 😉
I´m deeply and habitually addicted to the feeling of getting away with it!
What “it”? You might ask… Any “it”
Some “its” are good, some are bad, some are ugly and some outright destructive, as long as I can get away with “it”, I´m in the game!
Let me give You a little background (yup, might be lengthy – bear with me…):
I don´t know how familiar You are with Dr Taylor Hartman and the Color Code but if You haven´t heard about it, I highly recommend You check it out. Dr Hartman developed a method to determine our core motive, that is what really drives us. There are basically four different kinds of core motives that are represented by the colors red (Power), blue (Intimacy), white (peace) and yellow (fun) and You can take the free test to determine Your color here!
It takes about 30-40 min and is well worth the time.
Frankly the Color Code contributed to me and my marvelous wife getting married and has done more for my own understanding of myself and my interactions with others than anything else I studied through the years!
On a CD introducing the Color Code system Dr Hartman says something to the regard of (and I´m paraphrasing here):
If You are a red spouse married to a blue spouse and receive a yellow child You know that God is having a good laugh!
I used to make jokes about it not being too much fun for the yellow child either, having been born into that constellation myself.
My father was an extremely controlling red who´s physical challenges with health and inability to feel and be satisfied with his own accomplishments seriously affected the health of his color, my mother is a worry-prone blue who makes the real intimacy she craves impossible to attain due to her generally negative and worry-some approach to life.
And, no, I´m not picking on my parents here, they did their best and I hold them in high regard for that. I have no idea how messed up my life would be if my family had been functional ;-), and, BTW, show me a non-dysfunctional family…
It´s just immensely liberating to know what caused the way I work and function, I don´t know about You, though I think most of us struggle with feelings of “not being enough” or “not being good enough” at some point.
Without being even close to a conspiracy theorist I´m convinced that this is actually (planned or by accident I don´t know…) programmed into our blueprint at an early age.
You know, for example, how the teacher points out what´s “wrong” in a test and doesn´t count the “right” answers, what we like to call “the red pencil syndrome”.
Anyway, knowing that this addiction developed out of a completely logical and actually (at the time) crucial need for survival makes it a lot easier to accept it and even embrace it.
Funny enough,as the insight brings the mechanism behind certain subconscious behaviors into the conscious realm it also makes it possible for “the watchman at the gate” to do his work properly. The power of that addiction on the cellular level can be broken as suddenly I have a choice that I didn´t have while I didn´t know there was a choice to make.
As long as something is driven by subconscious habits that we are not aware of, there´s virtually nothing we can do to break the habit, and this changes the moment we are finally willing and able to observe ourselves enough to become aware of that subconscious habit.
I don´t know if I would ever have been able to see this pattern in myself if not for the exercises I have been (and still am) practicing because of the Master Key Experience. Maybe, maybe not…
What I do know is that I´m filled with gratitude towards the material and especially towards myself for my commitment and dedication to pursue this journey of self discovery.
And I can´t wait for the next layer of self to be revealed to me in the silence that more and more evolves into my “real” reality.
So, what is the favorite “fix” for Your cells?
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